Just another day in my screwed up life

So, here we are again. Just another day. Everyday has trials for me lately. I don't know when it is gonna end or if it ever will! I guess I should start from the beginning.
It started yesterday which is Monday and Jose's first day with the kids each week. We agreed a few months ago that Jose would take the kids on Mondays and Tuesdays since he has Monday thru Wednesday off. That gives him one day that he's not with the kids when he isn't working. I think it is common sense for him to keep the kids overnight seeing as he will also have them on Tuesdays but I guess that is asking way too much from him. I should have known when I had to shut off my phone yesterday when I was hanging out with my friends because he was calling me constantly. I knew he would just want me to go get the kids but he is their father and should take part in helping to raise them. I should know better. I really should. This is how he has always been but I guess I just haven't accepted it. So when I finally turn on my phone this morning I have 9 voicemails all from him. He even went as far as to call my mom at midnight and then come over at 8AM to get clothes that I "never packed" for the kids. Then when he finally calls me again this morning all he tries to do is hurt me with the one person that I specifically told him I didn't want my kids around. This girl is my psycho stalker and she has done nothing but cause drama day in and day out for the last 2 years. She has vandalized our cars and tried to extort money out of Jose. But yet .. . he runs to her again. I don't have a problem if that's the level he wants to take himself down too. I really don't. I just care that she is around my kids. But I hope she enjoyed seeing my GORGEOUS babies cuz it will be the last time. Now I have to call the credit union and have my car that Jose drives voluntarily repossessed and cancel his phone. Not to mention he still owes me $500 that I loaned him from my own pocket. I don't know how the hell I will even pull off my kids' birthdays this year but I will. That's a promise. Im just so tired of all this fighting and intentionally trying to hurt me. Im just trying to do what is best for my kids and I feel like I am fighting a losing game. I know I will be triumphant sooner or later but I sure as hell wish it would be sooner rather than later. In the meantime, I did meet a very nice guy who is very respectful of me and has a genuine interest in who I am as a person. He accepts that I am a mother and never wants me to stray from it. After dealing with an ass for 7 years I think it's about damn time I met a nice guy. So a big thanks to Shawni for introducing us. I can only see everything in my future going up. I know it won't be easy but I know that I have a strong group of friends and family to help me through it all. I know I have people who love me and care enough to have my back in any situation and they won't judge or question me on how I got there. So to all those people, especially to my mom, I love you and I thank you and someday I will find a way to repay you. I will never do you wrong.