Day number 1

So here I am. Im very new and very uninformed when it comes to this blogging thing but when my best friend told me I needed to blog to get out all the emotion that is in me, I decided to give it a good shot.
I will start by introducing myself.
My name is Keshia and Im 22 years old.

I feel much older than my age because of my wide range of life experience. It also could be because I have 2 beautiful children that call me MAMA.

I have a little girl named Leyna who will turn 3 on August 3rd and a little boy named Damian who will be 1 on August 8th. Let me tell you, no other title than MOTHER could make me happier or give me more cause to wake up each and every single morning with a huge grin on my face. I will readily admit that I am probably one of the hugest saps you will ever meet (and yes, as I wrote that last sentence I was getting all teary eyed . . . ). I am currently married but won't be for long as I am in the process of divorcing my children's father/significant other. That is the reason I was told to blog.

Going through this divorce is the hardest thing I think I have ever done in my life. It's so hard to give up on something especially when it is the only thing you have ever wanted. Didn't someone say that somewhere? Well it sticks with me day in and day out. So many people that I truly care about and I know truly care about me have told me since day one that my "husband" was bad news. But as someone once said, "Love doesn't make you blind, it allows you to see more. But because you can see more, you choose to see less." Well, I was in love. I thought it was the cute kind of love. But it wasn't. Nonetheless, I was head over heels before I could stop myself. And now Im walking away from all that I have really known, what has been my life for the last 7 years, and stepping into a world that I have no clue what it holds for me or what my purpose in it is. But Im not just stepping my friends, oh no! Im leaping into it headfirst and hoping for the best. So wish me luck and stay with me through this roller coaster that I call my life. I can proudly say for the first time in 7 years, this is my life in my words. And Im scared.